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Standing in the Pain

Remembering Carl can be bittersweet. Even after three months, the thought of him causes my heart to sink and a sadness to sweep over me. So why is it that even though it hurts, I don’t want to forget our four legged family member?

My husband just recently had a picture of our friend placed into an acrylic cube for us to have as a way to remember him. The picture was taken when we were traveling and Carl was perched on the side of our truck. Even though we were going through a tough time with the sickness of a family member, that moment will always be considered special to us.

God never intended us to experience death when He created us. Genesis 3:2-3 states, “The woman said to the serpent, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.’”

Once Adam and Eve ate the apple, death came into the world. And now we have to figure out how to best get through the pain of loss. So often, we want to question God or turn our back on Him when the suffering becomes too unbearable.

Martha and Mary were also suffering for the loss of their brother. They could have become bitter and pushed Jesus away when he arrived after their brother died. Both women were in immense pain but somehow even then, they approached Jesus.

And this is where the shortest and one of the most profound verses in the Bible is placed. (John 11:35) ”Jesus wept.” No words. Just a heart wrenching emotion of love for these two women that were hurting. Jesus wants to weep alongside all of us as we go through the excruciating pain of loss. No judgement, no words, just heartfelt empathy.

So as much as I want to put away the pictures and avoid the pain, I believe facing it will help me to remember my savior standing in the pain providing me a peace that can only come from Him.

Carl- On the Other Side

If Carl could see my husband and I as we have mourned for him in the last couple of days, he probably wouldn’t understand the tears or sad looks. He wouldn’t comprehend how the thought of him in all of his usual places causes us to catch our breath as we try to shake off the unwelcome feelings.

The pain of loss is a difficult emotion to move through. I keep telling myself that is better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all. But it still doesn’t make the feelings go away or change the realization that we will never see our beloved Carl again.

I have received several encouraging notes about a Rainbow Bridge where animals go until they greet their owners on the other side. A place where animals have all their needs met and no longer suffer.

I love the thought of Carl running around an open field making new four legged friends. No leashes or restraints, just the freedom of running free. I can also envision him as he turns his head upward and howls for everyone to know that he has arrived.

But what gives me the most hope about this situation can be found in John 11:32-33. “When Mary reached the place where Jesus was and saw him, she fell at his feet and said, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.”

When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come along with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in spirit and troubled.”

What gives me the most encouragement is the fact that Jesus entered Mary’s pain. He didn’t minimize it or down play it, but he allowed it to consume him. He cried with her and I know he is crying with me now. He doesn’t think being upset at the loss of a dog is silly or trite. Instead, he is beside me as I suffer.

It brings me an extreme amount of comfort just knowing the author of life has entered into our pain. And with this knowledge, I believe that He will provide for our furry friend in death as he takes care of us in life.

I want to thank all of you who have supported me as I have written about all the craziness that came with living with Carl. I am not sure if I will continue to blog, but I am sure God will provide an avenue if it is meant to be. In the meantime, if you would like to purchase my book, Empty Hands, it is now available today on Amazon as an eBook for only $.99.

Thank you,

Cora