I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. It had been so long since I had seen Carl in this position that it took me a minute to realize what I was looking at. I had gotten up in the middle of the night and I happened to look in the hallway and there,Continue reading “Paralyzed with Fear”
Tag Archives: Fear
Fighting off Anxiety
Anxiety swept over me like a wave splashing across my entire body. I knew in my soul that something was terribly wrong and I didn’t know what to do. Carl could not be found and I truly believed that he might be gone forever. Early each morning before the heat sets in, I have goneContinue reading “Fighting off Anxiety”
The Power of Fear
Power. It takes all kinds of shapes. Last night I saw it in its most primitive state. After feeding Carl and Bee, I went back into the bedroom and went back to sleep. A few minutes later I awoke to a feeling that something wasn’t right. I sat up and looked at the two dogContinue reading “The Power of Fear”
Storms In Our Lives
Carl has done it again. His separation anxiety continues to be clearly displayed. This time, Jay’s new recliner was attacked and the chair lost. Because Carl cannot be trusted in the house when we are away, he and Bee have been banned to the porch and back yard. If they want to come in, theyContinue reading “Storms In Our Lives”
This Suffocating Feeling
There is a suffocating feeling that has been pressing down on me for the last couple of days. Exhaustion and a sense of sadness has wrapped its arms around me, squeezing me ever so tightly. Life before was so easy to glide through like a bird soaring over an open field. Now, thoughts of realityContinue reading “This Suffocating Feeling”
Suspended
When I was a little girl, I lived across the street from a park that had been created on a hilly incline with trees towering over and a creek slithering through it. There were shelters made out of boulders that smelled like charcoal from many a cookout. The rustic park also held all the traditionalContinue reading “Suspended”
The Murky Water
The murky water surrounded me like a tomb. I could feel the motion of the boat racing towards me and knew that this could be the end of my life. Instinct took over and my body plunged deeper towards the bottom of the lake. I seemed removed from the pain that seared throughout my body.Continue reading “The Murky Water”